I experienced Transformation Church VIIID Conference October 2023 and was totally amazed during the 3-day experience. The word surrender keeps popping into my thoughts and I thought this is the topic I should be addressing in my post. Merriam-Webster Dictionary defines surrender as to give up completely or agree to forgo especially in favor of another: to give (oneself) up into the power of another….
When I think of surrendering my issues to God, I wonder if all these years when I thought I was turning things over to God did I really and why is it easier to turn over somethings and not others. I felt a freeing of anxiety during the conference in areas of my life that I thought was handled. But when I returned to my everyday life, I was hit with an issue I thought I had under control. It rocked me for a moment, and I retreated to a place of defense. I realized that this was not surrendering the issue to the Lord. I had a revelation that until I let go, He can’t begin the healing process. It was a wow moment. I am so glad that I am in a church that subscribes to theology and therapy. It may take some counseling for me to fully come to grips with my past trauma. But on this day, I told myself to be the bigger person and not treat anyone the way I perceived I was being treated and to make sure that I was being a light.
That moment changed the trajectory of years of damage. I am healing because I am finally letting go of the hurt. It is a process and it started with surrender. True surrender.
Love,
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